By Colleen Sutherland
That first day of first grade, Miss
Algard read us an Aesop fable about the grasshopper and the ant. The
grasshopper fiddles away the summer while the ant works. At the end
of the story, the ant is secure in its home with plenty of food while
the grasshopper starves to death. Other versions would have the ant
taking the grasshopper in but that was not how Aesop wrote it Miss
Algard said She didn't believe in messing with the classics.
After Miss Algard finished the story,
she asked the first grade class: “Which would you rather be?” We
all dutifully said, “The ant,” which is what she wanted to hear.
We promised we would all be good little workers. All but Sallie Mae.
“No, the grasshopper. The grasshopper has all the fun.”
“But in the end, he starves,” Miss
Algard said.
“Worth it,” insisted Sallie Mae.
Sallie Mae did have fun and got into
trouble for it. On nice days she was down by the river splashing
around, playing hooky. Once the police picked her up as she was
riding her bicycle around and around the park and deposited her at
school. She was there ten minutes and was out the door again. “Good
days shouldn't be wasted,” she said.
She showed me her report card once.
Straight A's in every subject but behavior. She got an F minus
there. I got good grades, too, not as good as hers but I got an A+ in
deportment and a note to my parents about what a good little helper I
was.
She wasn't Sallie Mae for long. At the
beginning of the second grade, she announced to her new teacher,
“Everyone calls me Sacha.” No one called her Sacha, not her
friends, not her relatives, not her parents.
“Isn't Sacha a boy's name?” I
asked “Girl's name, too,” Sallie Mae said. “It's short for
Alexandra.”
“But your name isn't Alexandra
either.”
By the end of that year, her name was
Sacha and remained so. She was one of my best friends but I never
went on escapades with her. Every time she got into a scrape, I
reminded her of the ant and the grasshopper, but she laughed.
“I see a lot of grasshoppers and ants
down by the river and none of them are dying,” she said. “Working
like an ant is just gross.”
It was that way all the way through
grade school and high school. I plodded along, getting good grades,
working hard in school, church and the community. I was in Girl
Scouts. Sacha tried one meeting and never came back. “Boring,”
she said. I sang in the school choir. Sacha played the violin in the
school orchestra.
“I intend to fiddle away my life,
like the grasshopper,” she said when she first took up the
instrument. It was the one thing she worked at. Sometimes our
church invited her on Sundays to perform solos and I found out they
paid her, too. I knew enough about music to know she wasn't really
playing Christian songs, usually something from some pagan opera.
We remained friends for a long time. I
tried to get her to behave, she tried to get me into trouble.
Finally, it was too much an effort. By our junior year we had
drifted apart. She was taking college prep classes, I was in the
business courses, taking shorthand, typing and bookkeeping. Rumor
said she was dating college guys and everyone said she was loose. I
had a nice boy friend my parents introduced me to but I intended to
be a virgin on my wedding day.
Sacha's grades got her into an Ivy
League school. Though I got the best grades by doing extra credit,
the faculty said Sacha would probably be better at giving the
graduation speech. I should have been up there at the podium but I
don't know what I would have said...maybe something on the
grasshopper and the ant and working hard to achieve our dreams.
Instead Sacha spoke on the theme, “Time to go out and live!”
Everyone laughed throughout and applauded though the faculty frowned.
Later the school board had a meeting about that.
Sacha went off to college on
scholarships. I had scholarships, too, but I followed my parents'
advice and went to the technical college for more business training.
A year later, I was in the clerical pool in a big insurance company.
Two years later, I was pregnant and married.
Before graduation, I had signed up to
be on the reunion committee. Soon we were working on our fifth
reunion. It took us a while to locate Sacha. Her parents had moved
and so had she. We finally found an ex-boyfriend who knew she hadn't
graduated from her big Eastern college. Instead she had moved to
California and was living in a hippy commune. She sent word she
would be at some West Coast peace rally and couldn't make the
reunion.
She did show up at the tenth reunion.
Our committee hadn't invited her because we didn't know where she
was, but she showed up anyhow, throwing all the number count and
seating arrangements for the dinner off because she brought two
boyfriends. “Couldn't decide which one,” she said. Instead of a
nice dress, she wore jeans, a leather jacket and boots.
By then, I was working again. My
husband and I were salting away money on annuities, stocks and
savings. We had three children to educate and we were thinking ahead
to retirement.
“How are you doing?” I asked Sacha.
“Great. We've started a blue grass
band. Gregor on the drums, Eli on the guitar and me on the fiddle.”
“Oh, that must be lucrative.”
“Nah, we've been hitchhiking around
the country, but Gregor just bought a van to take us to the next
gig.”
Late that evening, we found her with
Gregor in the back of his van, smoking pot and half naked. My husband
called the police, but by the time they arrived, the van was gone,
leaving boyfriend no. 2 behind.
At the 20th reunion, we
found out she was now an artist, showing her wares at farmer's
markets and craft shows. She sent us pictures of her daughter
wrapped up in a quilt at the edge of her booth and news that she was
now a socialist. We left that last bit out out of the memorial
album. She didn't show up for the reunion anyhow.
She was in town for the 25th
reunion because she was part of an environmental group picketing our
biggest business, the chemical factory where I worked as a secretary.
I told her to leave them alone because if I stayed with them another
fifteen years, I would get a good pension.
“Where's your daughter?” I asked
her.
“She lives with her father. I get
her over the summers.”
Sacha had no photos of her daughter but
did have some slides from her travels and agreed to show them to the
class along with a talk about her adventures. I could have shown
photos of our trip to the Grand Canyon, but Sacha had been all over
the world it seems, fighting pollution. Each slide had a silly story
to go with it.
“That must take a lot of money,” I
said.
“Nah, I just sign on to work with
various environmental groups that give me a place to stay. Then I
give talks about it later to pay for the air fare.” That's when I
found out she was being paid to attend the reunion. Everyone seemed
to get a kick out of her.
“She makes these reunions more fun,”
the chairman said. I quit the committee then and there.
I queried her again after the dinner.
She had never married, so that daughter was illegitimate.
“What about the future? Don't you
want to save money for her college education?”
“Nah, her daddy has all the money for
that, plus the connections to get her in. Plus, she's a smart little
cookie. She'll probably get scholarships. I take her with me when we
go abroad.”
Sacha didn't seem to see the need to
save for the future. We, on the other hand, were building up a nice
nest egg. We had moved into our second home, a sprawling house with
on an acre of land. It needed a lot of upkeep and the lawn had to be
mowed every week, but it would be a good investment. It was worth the
two mortgages, plus they would be tax write-offs our banker said as
he handed us the forms. It meant an hour commute each way for me to
work at the chemical plant.
I was now the office supervisor. I
didn't like the snippy young girls who worked under me and they
didn't like me either, but it was food on the table and health
insurance. We needed that now. Bill had developed ulcers and high
blood pressure. Diabetes was my problem but as long as I had my job
we were OK.
My daughter was in computer classes at
the tech but her grades were never that good. One son was in jail
but we never talked about that at reunions. The other boy just
disappeared one day. The word was that he was in Colorado living
with another guy. We wrote him off, too. It didn't look like there
would be any grandchildren for us.
By the time the 40th reunion
rolled around, I was a widow. I kept up with the house. It was an
investment after all. I managed to renegotiate the mortages, turning
them into one. I gave up driving to work and took the bus.
Sacha didn't show up for the reunion
but we watched her on PBS news talking about the environment. She
had written a book about political activism. A few members of the
class had read it.
Our town was one of the first to have
to deal with the collapse of the housing market. The chemical plant
closed and went into bankruptcy taking the pensions along with my
job. Then the recession hit and all my investments were gone. The
house followed. I found myself in a one room subsidized apartment.
The only traveling I did was to take the bus to Tea Party rallies. I
was now working at Walmart, trying to get by on social security and a
part time job.
At the 50th class reunion
everyone gathered around Sacha. She was a celebrity now, still
working on environmental issues and considering a run for Congress.
She brought along photographers and newsmen so our reunion had great
coverage. Some of us were interviewed, but I passed on it. Sacha
looked great in her designer dress. Mine was the same dress I wore
to the 40th reunion. It didn't fit all that well.
She was huddled in a corner talking to
Mr. Pritchard about her career. He must have been eighty years old
now. I sidled over to listen. She was giving him credit for starting
her environmental career in his advanced biology course.
Sacha owned a townhouse in Georgetown,
she told him, paid for with the proceeds from her memoir, which had
been a best seller. She felt the house would be necessary while she
was in Congress.
“That's our Sasha,” Mr. Pritchard
said. “Always confident.”
She finally noticed me.
“How are you doing?” she said. I
wasn't sure she even knew who I was. It was the final straw. Damn
her!
“Lousy! And it's not fair. All my
life I've worked like the ant and you've been the grasshopper.
Where's my reward? Where's my cushy home? Where's my money?”
Mr Pritchard asked, “What are you
talking about?”
“Aesop, the grasshopper and ant
story. I've worked hard all my life and what has it gotten me? I have
nothing! I mean, Sacha should be dead by now.”
Mr. Pritchard and Sacha looked at each
other and back at me with sorrow written all over their faces.” I
hated it that they felt sorry for me.
“Aesop got it all wrong,” Mr
Pritchard explained. “Ants live three months. Grasshoppers live up
to eleven months.”
Sacha patted my hand. “Kiddo, Aesop
was no scientist. It's only a fable. The truth is in the end, we're
all dead sooner or later. We have to live it up while we can.”
When she travels through this area,
Sacha visits me here at Glen Valley nursing home. She is one of the
few visitors I get.
She tells me about her life, about her
travels. I pretend to listen but I am thinking of that old bastard
Aesop. I hate him almost as much as I hate Sacha.
I won't be going to the 60th
reunion.
Thank you for justifying my sad sap life my dear -this made me feel a WHOLE lot better today and gave me a smile!
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